100 Happy Days 100/100, Just The Beginning

One hundred days, one hundred posts, the majority of them more than one paragraph which I’m pretty proud of considering the challenge was started as a photo challenge. 

I’ve enjoyed it, but I’ve also had the odd day where I felt like giving up. When I started a hundred days ago I had no idea if I could actually do it, since I havn’t been able to stick to anything this year, but here I am. I’m pleased I pushed through the days where it was a bit harder and I always felt better afterwards.

I feel like the challenge has helped me. I feel happier, I’ve found more motivation than I’ve had this whole year and both Zombie and I have noticed that our lives are just pretty good in general right now. Far from perfect of course, but I truly believe that small things that used to be able to bring my mood down and stress me out are a lot easier to deal with when I’m happier overall.

I feel like I have a good hold on my PPD at the moment and I’m doubting myself as a mother less. I’ve been taking my antidepressants daily since my month long slip up and I’ve been making more effort to attend my support group which I had started missing on the regular. I’m no longer letting Anxiety direct me to the worst case scenario every time I get a minor curve ball. 

Love

I needed to do this challenge. I started it on a whim, unsure if it would work, unsure if my followers would get bored of the change of direction of the blog for three whole months and terrified of failing. I didn’t have time for it and I’d set myself a pretty big target that roughly 70% of people fail on the first or only attempt. 

And now, for the first time since I found out I was pregnant with my son I feel like I know where I am going with my blog. It’s been a little all over the place for over a year now, mostly due to pressure I was putting on myself to write posts when I was out of inspiration. 

Happiness in Tekapo

It’s been a hundred days of reflection on the good things that life has to offer if we just take the time to notice. I’d forgotten about a lot of it, Anxiety and Depression skewing my perception of the world making it difficult to be truly happy even during wonderful moments. 

I’m glad that’s a thing of the past now. I’d like to say I’ll be more self aware and not let myself be sucked in so deep into Depression and Anxiety in the future, but unfortunately I can’t. I don’t know what the future holds nor how I will handle it.

For now, I am content with my life and motivated to keep it that way for as long as possible and excited for.a future I was almost dreading three months ago.

Smiles and Sunshine

Katie

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100 Happy Days 98/100, Biggest Loser

I’m currently participating in a Biggest Loser challenge and there’s just over two weeks to go. I’m pleased to say that over the last five weeks I’ve been able to report a loss each weigh in, except one where I stayed the same. I’ve lost over 3kgs and have started to get into a routine with healthy eating including cutting down drastically on the soft drinks. 

I don’t expect to win this time round as I got off to a slow and steady start, but I feel like this was the kick I needed to start getting myself on track.

Smiles and Sunshine

Katie

100 Happy Days 97/100, Extra Special

Since Bubble joined our family we have been lucky enough to have been given some extra special hand me downs.

The set of drawers that my Grandfather on my mothers side who died before I was born made that now reside in Bubble’s room.

These finger puppets knitted by my paternal Grandmother for some of my cousins. My Aunt has been amazing with how much she has sent for Bubble and I was touched that she wanted him to have the finger puppets

Zombies Alf who was one of his favourites growing up.  Alf is well travelled and loved, Zombie gave him to his nephew Boyo in Australia who loved him for years before recently passing him on to Bubble.

The other day Mum found this trolley and block set that I learned to walk with.  I was particularly stoked as she thought the blocks were long gone!

Rupert who went everywhere with Zombie and some soft toys I loved as a child like Koala (I was inventive with names) who I think belonged to my Nana on Mums side. Both of these guys have seen better days so they live on top of the drawers.

This bear is the most special to me.  When my siblings and I were born our father bought us each our own teddy bear.  This one he purchased in in case there was a fifth baby, but he died before that could happen.

On the morning that Bubble was born Mum came round to drive us to the hospital and when I opened the door she handed me the bear, still in it’s bag, explained the story behind it and told me that she had decided to give it to the baby (Bubble) who was about to be born.

Of course I burst into tears.  I could blame the fact that I was over forty weeks pregnant and petrified that I was about to have a c-section, but the truth is this gesture would have brought me to tears on my most level headed day.

I feel so blessed that our wee family has so many items that have made their way through our two families over the generations to Bubble.  I’m also looking forward to being able to pass these on to future babies born into the family.

Smiles and Sunshine
Katie

100 Happy Days 95/100, Sheldon

I love animals, but I’m not really an animal person. I don’t mind giving a cat or dog a quick pat and I definitely think they’re cute and enjoy watching the quirky things they do. I’m allergic to them though so I like my time with them to be limited. 

That’s what makes my current pet, who came as a package deal with Zombie, is perfect. Sheldon the turtle. Sheldon who is a big scaredy cat with all humans except Bubble and me when I have food. Sheldon who stares at me with untrusting eyes when I’m trying to take photos of him. Sheldon who I can watch swimming around his watery world for hours.

He’s not the easiest to get a photo of on my phone however

Smiles and Sunshine

Katie

100 Happy Days 94/100, Sleepyhead

On Wednesday at my depression group we each had to say something small that we were looking forward to this week. I said a sleepin on Saturday morning, although at that point I wasn’t sure if I was going to get one. 
Thanks to Zombie, this morning I got that sleepin, til the middle of the morning, 9.30! Woke up feeling refreshed and have had a pretty good day since.

Smiles And Sunshine

Katie

100 Happy Days 93/100, Baker

I love baking goodies and I’m pretty good at it. When I have to bring a plate to an event I’ll usually bake something the night before, like my triple chocolate brownie that always gets a positive response. I bake for fundraisers when I can and I also really enjoy baking for fun. Zombie has often said we make a good couple because I’m good at baking and he’s good at eating baking.

Unfortunately I dont have a lot of time for baking anymore, in fact I can’t remember the last time I did. 

Except for tonight. It’s a cold winters night, Bubble went down early and I felt like something sweet so I whipped up a chocolate self saucing pudding and then got to do the best part. Eat it.

Hard to get a photo that does the deliciousness justice.

Come to think of it, it’s probably a good thing I don’t bake that often, less temptation!

Smiles and Sunshine

Katie