It’s already beginning
The natural fear of inevitability
Such a long time has passed
Wounds as raw as ever

They play out in the mind
Reopening one by one
Each individual moment
The good, the bad and the rest

Emotions fresh and painful
Anger, hurt and betrayal
Was it the right decision
To look out for number one

The utter disbelief
Reliving every angle
Making the tough decision
Then dealing with the doubt

The stomach is sinking
Deeper with each passing moment
There’s no reason to be afraid
Though anxiety begs to differ

It won’t be that bad
After all there is no true blame
Repeat the mantra
It’s okay, it’s okay, it will be okay

Self fulfilling prophecy
It may or may not become
There’s nothing to be done
But facing fear head on

Fear of the unknown
Fear of what will be
Fear that it could go either way
No way to be prepared

Trembling hands and cold sweats
Just breathe, just breathe
Be brave this one time
Then move on, it’s done


4 thoughts on “Conflict

    1. Thank you Janet. I am always overly nervous about sharing my poems. J am very new to poetry and I think I over analyze my work, does it make sense, does it flow? I am very pleased to get some feedback, especially positive feedback ☺


  1. Splendid poem. The ending reminded of this:

    “There is no means of testing which decision is better, because there is no basis for comparison. We live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehearsal for life is life itself? That is why life is always like a sketch. No, “sketch” is not quite a word, because a sketch is an outline of something, the groundwork for a picture, whereas the sketch that is our life is a sketch for nothing, an outline with no picture.”
    ― Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

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