Mission Effort

The weekend has arrived! Bringing with it excitement and opportunity from every direction. The sheer volume of activities I can do over the weekend is far too many choices for one person to handle.

I Googled ‘what’s on in Christchurch’. It took me to a list of 31 events in the city today. That’s quite a few!

The local air club is having an open day and you can go in the draw to win a flight, as the pilot!

There’s a Spiritual Holistic Healing Expo on that I think would be quite interesting.

There’s even a beach day organized to promote the nudist lifestyle!

The temperature is just right for a run, walk, hike through the hills and even so called chores like the gardening.

And the actual chores. They’re neverending.

So what happens when you have no mission effort?

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Today, I’m sitting here, typing this and thinking about reading a book. I don’t have enough mission effort to get up to much else. I had a busy morning running errands and I’m tired.

I’m even considering a nap.

Naps are awesome but they suck!!! I nap a lot and it always seems like a good idea at the time, but I always wake up feeling worse than I did before!

Not that I feel bad today, I’ve felt amazing all week! I just really don’t feel like doing anything.

Last weekend was fantastic. We went ice skating, hiked up the hills and had a picnic lunch, watched an awesome movie called ‘The Losers’. Also got some gardening (well, we have a lot of pots on the patio) and chores done, and of course my planning and food prep for the week ahead. And no naps! I was pretty stoked about that last part.

I often feel guilty about no mission effort days. Until recently, I had a lot of them. I don’t go out a lot because I don’t want to spend a lot of money at the moment. My anxiety makes me not the most social of people too. I love going out with my friends but I often feel awkward and not sure how to relax.  However I do have a pretty busy life, with work and fitness and working on my goals for the year.

I think that lazy days are important. I think that the pace, stresses and expectations of life leave us drained. We may not feel exhausted, but we deserve and are entitled to a break every now and then, a day of not worrying about what needs to be done, to recharge the batteries, slow down and relax. It’s important to look after ourselves.

Just not everyday. This is what I’m working on at the moment. I used to spend days at a time like this. Spending weekends and holidays doing the bare minimum I needed to and just watching TV or playing video games. It’s nice, but it leaves me feeling guilty to myself, for not taking advantage of the wonderful opportunities in my city everyday. So it’s time to change that.

I’ve been really good lately at getting out there and making things happen, so I’m not feeling guilty today. Tomorrow, I will achieve lots. And the day after, and more.

Today I am enjoying my break.

Smiles and sunshine
Katie

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Perspective

So I’d like to talk about how today was not a particularly good day.

I woke up early again, feeling great! But instead of getting up I lay in bed for a while. Big mistake. Next thing I know it’s 10 minutes after I have to leave for work!

Luckily my boss is very understanding. I sent him a quick text to say I’d be late then scrambled to get ready. One good thing about my depression is it has taught me how to get ready very quickly, due to the amount of times I’ve had to rush to get out of the house after the agonizing internal battle about whether or not to get out of bed and face the world, or retreat under the covers and spend the day crying.

So glad I haven’t had one of those days in a while!

I decided to take a different route to work. It’s a little bit further, but it’s quicker. THIS WAS A MISTAKE! Was almost at work when suddenly I see the telltale sign of disco lights behind me. It became pretty apparent that they were after me when I changed lanes to let them through and they followed.

So I pulled over and got a $300 fine. I haven’t had a fine for years! I admit, I deserved it (not something I’m proud of), but still! To add insult to injury I had to wait about 10 minutes for it!

The day went steadily downhill from there. Nothing major happened, but there were hiccups every step of the way. Delays, issues, setbacks. This isn’t unusual in my line of work, but it certainly makes everyone stressed and grumpy!

Which brings me to why I wanted to write about this. Today, I had a major win.

Today, I didn’t let any of it bother me!

I am so proud, you really have no idea. It’s such a good feeling to have what I would usually class as a bad day, and spend the whole day swearing and sighing and generally freaking out, but be able to brush it off!

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This may sound cliche, but it’s actually true. So many good things happened to me today. And that is what I kept thinking to myself all day.

Simple things that we overlook everyday were the things that kept me happy today. I got a fine on the way to work, but I didn’t get into an accident! I had a rough day at work, but I have a job, not to mention a job that I love (believe me I know how lucky I am). I woke up late, but I woke up!

Yesterday one of the drivers came into work and said “every day that you wake up breathing is a good day.” That is something I’ve often thought about over the past few months for the simple fact that I’d be pretty gutted if I didn’t wake up at all.

I know from personal experience that it isn’t always easy to brush problems off, or to look on the bright side, but life is so much better when you do! It’s all about putting things into perspective. Something I started practicing a few months ago has helped me with this and it’s also very simple.

Think of 5 good things.

Whenever I get stressed or overwhelmed, I stop, take a breath and think about 5 good things. Usually once I get to 3 I’m feeling better and when I get to 5 I want to keep going! There are so many good things about life that once you get started, it’s hard not to smile.

Sorry if this seems a little preachy, but this is something that I have found really helpful with my depression recovery. The best part about it is that anyone can benefit from this.

If anyone has any other tips they would like to share with me for turning a bad day around, please do, I’m always keen to try new things to keep happy.

As always, I hope you all had a fantastic day
xx Katie

Accidental Concoctions

So tonight I accidentally made a delicious mild curry, and thought it only fair to share. This is elimination diet friendly, healthy and delicious.

I felt pretty good today by the way. Zombie slept through his alarm, but I didn’t so I woke him up then got up myself. At 5.30am! I NEVER do that! Especially on a Monday!!! But even though I’d had trouble getting to sleep last night I woke up feeling refreshed and ready for an awesome Monday.

Felt really good all day too which makes two days in a row. THIS IS EXCITING!!! Hopefully it means my body is starting to get rid of all the toxins and start healing!

I don’t usually like Mondays, I mean who does! But I tackled today head on, achieved lots at work (I’m actually still not caught up with my workload from my Christmas holiday!) and came home to get unexpectedly creative in the kitchen.

My original plan was simply to have garlic chicken and mushrooms on rice. But I kept adding ingredients and came up with a creamy mild curry that I just wanted to keep eating! I had enough for lunch tomorrow too, I’m hoping it tastes just as good the next day.

Turmeric Chicken Curry

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So my photography and presentation skills aren’t the best, but I promise this tasted wonderful.

150gm (5 oz) chicken (I used breast) diced into bite sized pieces
2 garlic cloves crushed
1 onion diced
3 button mushrooms sliced
2 cups kales chopped
1 tbsp turmeric powder
1 tbsp thyme (I used dried)
1 tbsp ginger
1 tsp ground cloves
1 cup coconut cream
2 tbsp coconut oil

Heat half the coconut oil in a pan on medium then add onion, garlic and mushrooms. After a few minutes add kale and sautee until onions are translucent. Set aside in a bowl.

Add the remaining coconut oil to the unwashed pan then brown the chicken.

Add all herbs and spices and mix together. Add back in the vegetables.

Pour over coconut cream and bring to the boil, stirring. Cover and simmer for 15 minutes or until chicken is tender.

After simmering I added a bit more turmeric and ginger to taste. I served over brown rice.

This made enough for me to have leftovers for lunch. I never used to get excited about leftovers but today I am!

Before I go I’d just like to add that I weighed myself this morning, first time since I started the elimination diet seven days ago. I’ve lost 3.2 kgs! That’s about 7 pounds! I want to stress that this diet is not about weight loss and I am aware that once I start reintroducing foods I will gain some weight back, but it certainly is a nice side effect!

Hope you all had a wonderful Monday

xx Katie

I Have Learned

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I’m a week in now!

I wanted to post sooner but I’ve been so TIRED!!!

Its a lot harder than I thought it would be, but in some ways, it’s easier than I expected. I’ve view the first week as experimental. I stuck completely to the diet, not a single slipup, which I think is a huge achievement.

The first two days were pretty normal, except I had a headache that just wouldn’t go away. I obviously couldn’t take any painkillers so this made staring at a computer at work all day very difficult. Combine that with the fact that it was unusually busy (January is normally quiet after the Christmas rush for us) and it made for long days, but I got through.

Which brings me to the first thing I Have Learned. Plans can’t change on the elimination diet.

Often if I’ve had a long day at work I’ll throw my dinner plans out the window and I’ll opt for something simple, but I really can’t do that anymore for the foreseeable. Zombie had takeout last night, because we’d had a busy day and he wanted to make it easier for me in the kitchen. But I didn’t have that option. I have no issue with him eating whatever he likes when I can’t, this is my choice, so I was grateful for him lightening my load. He doesn’t cook but I’m ok with that too, I love cooking!

I didn’t do any exercise on day 2 and 3 because of the headache and because I was ridiculously tired. I’ve slept pretty amazing every night this week, which is awesome because I’m not usually very good at sleeping. Unfortunately it wasn’t helping with the lethargy tho!

Which brings me to the next thing I Have Learned. Leftovers are my friend.

I do a lot of meal prep on Sundays, so that I don’t have to do it every day, but even with the prep there’s still often a last minute thing to add. I found that because I was so tired I’d often forget these additions. None of them were major losses, but losses all the same. But leftovers are perfect for when I’m too drained! No last minute prep!

I also learned that having extra snacks planned is essential. All the information I’ve received has advised not to count macros on this diet, but I discovered that I was eating way less than I should be. I wasn’t hungry, I’m assuming because of the sheer volume of water I was chugging, but I had to make myself eat more just to make sure I wasn’t starving my body.

I’ve not been very creative with my snacks. The less thinking I have to do about every meal the better in this stage I’ve learned, so I had bananas, chopped carrots, avocado and apples on hand almost everywhere I go. I’m hoping to make it a little more creative in coming weeks, when I’m feeling better from the detox stage.

On Thursday I woke up feeling amazing and also discovered that I’d run out of lemons. I Have Learned you can never have too many lemons! I thought I’d bought enough but I used them in the first 3 days! I’ve been drinking lemon in hot water each morning, there are so many health benefits to doing this. But I’ve also been using it as a dressing for EVERYTHING!  Mostly because Balsamic vinegar doesn’t go with everything!

Thursday was great. I felt awesome, the whole day and was even able to do some light exercise! So when I woke up on Friday feeling like I’d been hit like a train I was disheartened. It took so much effort to do everything, it was definitely the worst day. I lost count of how many times I got asked if I was hungover. I got better throughout the day, but still didn’t feel amazing.

All I wanted to do was go home from work and sleep, but I had a friends birthday party to go to. It was an ice skating session and it was a lot of fun, but hard getting the motivation at first. Once I was there I was fine tho, I even sat watching everyone eat her amazing looking cake without issue. My willpower is getting tested this week and it’s doing great!

Yesterday was alright but today, I feel amazing! I’ve achieved a lot today and even though I still have to cook dinner and do my meal prep for the week I have plenty of energy for it! Usually on a Sunday night I’m completely knackered, so to feel great is a win!

I Have Learned a lot this week, but another important one is that it’s hard to fit a whole week into a blog post! So I won’t be doing that again. Sorry this was so long but there was so much more I wanted to say.

Happy Sunday

xx Katie

Getting Started

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I’ve made it through my first day!

It wasn’t too bad.

I promise I won’t be blogging every day, I’m not that interesting and who has the time?

Day started at about 5.45 when The Zombie woke me up to say goodbye before he left for work. Sounds nasty but I’ve asked him to do this, it gets me out of bed, something I’ve never been good at.

The first thing I noticed was that my stomach was really sore! I remember thinking ‘yay! I don’t have to deal with this for much longer!’ This was short lived when I realised the real reason it was sore, being a woman is painful at times! Which brings me to my second promise, I am not going to blog about that in detail!

I started with a nice 40 minute yoga session. I have an app on my phone called ‘simply yoga’ and it’s great! It explains how to get into each pose and then tells you the benefits.  It’s not as great as having your own personal yoga teacher but it’s pretty damn close. I recommend this app.

On Saturday I wrote down a meal plan for the week and did the grocery shopping based on this plan. I tell you it was the cheapest shop I’ve done in a long time! Then on Sunday night I cooked up some quinoa and kale and combined it with fresh veges to make an Elimination Diet friendly salad. So my lunch was sorted, all I had to do was blend up a smoothie for breakfast, which I did. Frozen banana, a green apple and a generous handful of kale. This is my absolute favourite green smoothie ever it’s so delish! I usually add seeds and nuts as well but those are off limits for the time being.

Work was interesting, but uneventful. I had my camelbak on my desk and spent the morning sipping away. Before I knew it it was lunch time, I hadn’t needed a morning snack (I’d chopped up carrot and celery for the occasion) and I’d drunk 2 and a half litres of water! I decided to slow down on the chugging after that. They reckon you should drink heaps of water when you’re on this type of diet, but I really didn’t want to go overboard.

It was too late. They say ‘drink all the water, pee all the time!’ And it’s true.

Dinner was planned ahead, i thought this might make it easier to prepare. It didn’t. I always cook different sides for The Zombie and I, but I’ve never had to prepare two entirely separate meals to be ready at the same time! I tell you after this I’m going to be so ready for MKR!

I had baked chicken and herbs on tumeric rice with asparagus and garlic mushrooms. The Zombie had one of my awesome homemade burgers. He got bacon! I admit I was jealous, I do loooovvveeee me some bacon! But I was good.

I also caught myself. As I was assembling the burger I went to lick the mayo spoon automatically. But I stopped!!!! I’m still incredulous about this, but stoked!

I’m not going to be making completely separate meals for us each night, but as this is my choice it’s not fair for The Zombie to be restricted to only chicken, fish and rice, so I will be doing this often.

After dinner I cooked up an apple and cinnamon quinoa porridge for breakfast tomorrow. I made enough to freeze for other days too so that I’m not spending my entire life in the kitchen. Although this was pretty easy, 3 of the 4 ingredients are in the name! I haven’t tried it yet but I’m looking forward to tomorrows breakfast now.

I’m feeling pretty good. It’s day one so no huge achievement, but I got through it with no slipups which is always a good start. My third promise is that my blogs will not be a list of my days from start to finish, I just felt that it was a good way to report on the start.

I’m pretty knackered now, Mondays have a habit of leaving me that way. I hope you have all had a great Monday like I did, and that you have a great week ahead.

xx Katie

So It Begins

20140829_141746Hello, my name is Katie, thanks for stopping by!

I am 31 years old, born, raised and have spent most of my life living in Christchurch city in the beautiful South Island of New Zealand.

I love cooking, yoga, music and exploring nature, to name a few things.

I have no children but I do want them, hopefully one day soon. I have a fantastic partner (who shall from hereon in be known as The Zombie) who is very supportive and encouraging of me. We always joke around and give each other shit which I think is important to staying happy.

I’ve always been a proud Kiwi but I’ve recently discovered a new found appreciation for my homeland after a camper van trip over the summer holidays where we spent most of the time soaking in the beauty surrounding us on the West Coast.

I’ve started this blog to help me on my journey towards a healthier happier me. I’ve suffered from depression and anxiety disorders for as long as I can remember. Looking back I now realise I was always this way, even as a child, it just wasn’t as known about back then. Last year was the worst it’s ever been. I got reaIly really low and spent most of my time crying, for no reason. With the support of a great employer, my family and The Zombie, I’ve managed to recover from this. I know it will never be gone, but this year I would like to take charge of it.

I also have a few ‘afflictions’. I have very severe eczema that I take medication daily for as well as a myriad of creams and ointments. I have asthma and hay fever. I suffer from Polycystic ovary syndrome. I am also ALWAYS tired, even when I eat well and get a good nights sleep. I no longer feel sorry for myself about these things, it’s just the hand I’ve been dealt, however it doesn’t always have to be this way!

Tomorrow I begin my first full Elimination Diet. I tried a few years ago and failed, due to lack of planning, lack of commitment, laziness… The list goes on. But I am a different person now, I am more positive, I believe in myself more, and I accept the support I’m given.

Please join me on my journey of discovery. I will be sharing my experience with the Elimination Diet and my results. I will also share recipes that I create along the way. And of course I will be throwing in my everyday life also. There will be laughs and probably a few tears, but i will be keeping it as positive as possible and above all, honest.  I hope to inspire and help others who have health issues that they want to try and change naturally, but affordably.

I hope your day is filled with lots of joy

xx Katie